Like or Love? its Love ★...

I am so sorry that I have made you so sad..
Bt I really want to say..
It wasn't mean I like you .. My heart telling me .. I Love you❤..
And that was my intention..

You've explained it to me .. But it doesn't mean my mind has been changed..
Maybe words could make mistakes..

I would never say to someone: I like you..
Because I would only say: I love you..

I really don't know.. how I have changed you.. I just want to let you know..
Words can't explain anything.. feel it with ur heart❤..

I think you already know.. Its not only 'Like' but 'Love'
Only If I really love someone have a special place in my heart..

><" ★...

Awkward feeling..
It feel so heavy like a stone..
It feel so scratchy inside you..
Sometimes its look like you can't breathe..

what is it?.. Do you feel the same?..

Insomnia ★...

Types of Insomnia:

Transient insomnia?
Acute insomnia?
Chronic insomnia?
Onset insomnia?
Middle insomnia?
Terminal insomnia?

No none of them.. But why I can't fall in sleep?

I have the 'Love insomnia'..
By timing of sleep? no..
Severe depression? no..
By stress? no..
Chronic problems? no..
Pain disorders or Medical ilness? no..
Clinical depression? no..
Every second thinking about the one you love? ....

I feel only love for you ★...]

2day was Chinese sport federation organisation..
- I thought it was very boring.. I really don't want to help but I just gave me up for help with the organisation by TVB sing star..but it was really fun because this was the first time? that the chinese school have organised a lot of activities...

- Latetly of the day.. I saw my ex girlfriend.. a lot people would certainly feel really awkward when he saw her ex.. But I can tell you .. It was totally nothing, not even feeling sad that I saw her with his boyfriend! Its look like just a normal friend to me.. I can only say, I really only have feelings for the one I love.. I hope she wouldn't think that I am still thinking about her.. because its not true..

- Anyway I was a lil' bit sad.. that she called me that she couldn't come.. after a while she call me again .. that she is coming.. hahaha.. it was uhhh.. how can you say that.. Happy?=D.. but oke .. XD

ps: Anyway she wears 2day a very cute outfit ^^.. And playin' with the child..that she didn't even know who he is hahaha..

What does love mean to you? ★...

It is not enough to tell someone you love them on a regular basis if there is no passion and fire behind the statement.

Love mean to me is..
Love is something between you and me.. Bt you can also look in a different side..
What if she is not happy with you? But you still love her..
Press her to be with you all the time? Or better give her freedom 2 see her smile..

I think if you really love someone is:
If she is happy, You're happy..
You always be there if she is not happy..
Protect her in everyway..
Solve the problems if she gets in trouble..

The 3 magical words:
So tell me, what does it mean to you when you say the words, ‘I love you’ to me?
Give them time to think through their answers. Don’t pressure them.
It’s a lot like the first time you tell someone that you love them….
you still have to put yourself out there and wait for the honest openhearted response that they give you..

I hope the answer wouldn't be 'no'...

Window Shopping ★...

We made a deal last week or few weeks ago.. with 2 of my friends.. Brownie 'Nathalie and DoofenSchmirtz 'Charisse they defy me 2 only window shopping in 7 hours.. When we arrived at the Damsquare.. the first thing we go was the 'Bijenkorf'..
-Ipod store..
We stay there about 15min.. Charisse wants that Ipod Cover hahaha.. She couldn't buy.. a second later she hit my stomach.. kuch'.. Charisse: Thats what friends do.. >_< but oke.. second place..
- Ladies Stuffs OOO MMYYYY G*D! It was a nightmare 2 stay there.. Charisse was hanging all the bra's on my Coat.. I was look like a Idiot..X_X Nathalie was takin pictures without my permission.. but luckily they know it was 2 awful for me .. so we finally leave that Nightmare place..
-Expensive place! Hugo BOSS, Armani, Tommy HilFiger etc.. That was really only window shopping.. not even touched.. XD
-G-star *__* 2 Much things I like 2 buy.. But it was still a little bit expensive.. 140 euro for a trouser?.. Naaah..
-Last place in 'Bijenkorf' M.A.C ladies stuffs.. Charisse don't have the money again Hahahahahaa.... And you know what happend again.. Hit my stomach!..X_X bt now we went to DIOR department.. the parfume Dior Miss Cherie.. that smell is SO addicted!.. I was sprayed by Nath everywhere.. X_X..
Finally we are finished by the Bijenkorf.. Time 2 take a Break.. Mac Donald..

Second runn... was a little bit hurry.. Nath needs to work .. so we just walk by the Nieuwendijk.. Latetly we didn't really window shop again XD.. but we will do it once again..!!

Advantage: Didn't spend my money XD!! Disadvantage: Nicole ask Charisse to take me 2 Hunke Müller... =__=" Nooo Wayyy!


Jackiee > Charisse - Starbucks would be mine!

Missing her ★...

Some people said, If you don't see each other for a long time...
your feelings would maybe go away.. or it would be less then before..
But I think the opposite of what people thinking..

Every night when you go 2 sleep.. you can't stop thinking about her..
When you can't hear her voice.. Its hurting inside your heart..
When you couldn't see her.. its looks like you have lost her..
Each day goes beyond.. but your feelings for her is always still the same..

But I will wait for the right time.. The time to be happy being with you..

When someone you love has left you..
there is a feeling of missing a part of yourself..

03:00 PM can't sleep..

A lil' bit expensive ★...

In the morning.. I thought I could see her 2day bt I just dreamin' 2 much..=((

Bt 2day I thought I have nothing 2 do.. I just said that 2 a friend.. Bt I just totally forgot a friend of mine just give a Birthday party 2day...>_<... But better then that I didn't come..
We went 2 a Korean Restaurant called Khan Korean or something? but what ever.. there was no korean music.. no korean drama series.. even they have a Big screen Tv. but oke.. I thought mayb the food would be oke.. I ordered 'Kim Deum Ko Chi' don't know how 2 speak it out..and Chicken with Rice..

The picture from the food was oke.. So I order it.. Kim Deum Ko chi is Bacon with asparagus and egg, few prawns and pork meat.. for 15 euro..When you try 2 chew the asparagus, it looks like you are eating chewing gum.. So don't order it .. waste of your money.. and it wasn't even tasty..

Chicken with Rice..was sooo HOT!.. that you can spit fire...>_< but it was oke..becuz it was differently made than other chicken courts.. price was also 15 euro..

We didn't do anything else after the dinner..
Everybody just went home...

Ps: I was really pissed off that Doll machine!!.. Grrrr....

Since I have met you ★...

You know me, the cool guy? the innocent guy?..
I am not that kind of guy..
I am just the one who you have met..

I am the fool who is falling for you..
I can't stop my heart of thinking about you..

I am actually worried about how you think about me..
You might have some feelings towards to me..
I can only be worried like this ><"
I can't turn back..

My life was only exist from Darkness..
But since I have met you.. Its turning to a colorful life ♥..

Time will tell the Truth..

R.I.P My Friend 'Taro ★...

My little friend Taro my pet, just died 2day .. around 22.30u till 01.00u

His name is Taro, he is already 3 years old. But they said, normal hamster only live for max. 2 years. I am really glad he was still alive.. when he was 2 years old.

I am a little bit sad.. but its oke. I am not feel like crying, but it still feel so lonely because my hamster was my friend. He was very tame.. not like the other hamsters. But I knew I'd never have another hamster like Taro.

Rest In Peace my friend..

He was eatin' salad..

Gossip, its painful ★...

Half hour ago.. I have heard something.. And I am not happy with it. Sometimes you have heard something but not the whole story.. Don't let it turn into a gossip story. Gossip have no respect for justice. It breaks hearts and ruins live. It is cunning and malicious.

Actually, I think people like to gossip because they want to be part of a particular group. ever have some friends that start gossiping when they had no other things to talk about? that's the idea, they do not wish to be left out. gossip certainly hurts. how much truth is there in each gossip about a particular person? I can tell you, not much. most are exaggerated. I do not like to gossip, because I can understand how the victims will feel, and I put myself in their shoes. what if I was the one they gossiped about? it will make me very sad.

I apologize if there is something I did wrong..

Accidents or Incidents ★...

In 1 month I almost died twice.. The first time was.. I was listen 2 music but I didn't sense that the bus was next 2 me.. some one pull me back to the road.. the second time was .. I was on phone.. I look at the traffic light and it was green. The car went simply by red..I took my first step, if I made my second step.. I lost my feet..or mayb I died.. someone was yelling 2 me: WATCH OUT!.. I really consider .. that our life is very precious. What if I was really died? Still need to do a lot of things that I want to do..But I think our destiny has been stipulated already. But I thanks 2 god that he/she didn't let me die so early, even I can't sense or see them.

I just want to say.. use your chances that you have got.. otherwise you will regret it..

The Time ★...

Sometimes we do not have enough time.. But this time.. the time its going so slow.. Every second looks like every minute, every minute looks like every hour and every hour looks like every day.. Is time really so important in our life 2 confirm something that you already know? Or we just need to watch in an other situation?

1 minute its enough..

Once Upon A Star ★..

I gaze up at the sky each night 
and find the brightest star. 
It's always waiting there for me 
so close, but yet so far. 
The star winks in the evening sky 
and reaches out to me. 
It magically appears each night 
for all the world to see. 
I've wished upon this special star 
my whole life through, it seems. 
I've closed my eyes and made my wish 
of hopes, and plans, and dreams. 
And then, one day I got my wish 
for I finally met you. 
You are that someone special 
who's made all my dreams come true. 
So now whenever we're apart 
I find that same bright star. 
It makes me feel so close to you 
no matter where you are.

Kissing Star ★...

Kissing Star

The necklace that is used to symbolise Joon Pyo and Jandi's relationship is actually the Kissing Star necklace by Stonehenge. It symbolizes that the stars and moon are always together and cannot be separated, just like Joon Pyo and Jandi.

Is that true what I am thinking? Or is just a Fairy Tale?...

The meaning of a Star ★...

Its hard 2 believe that I also have started a blog.. Mayb I am scared to forget my unforgettable memories..So I decided 2 write it down.. Mayb My english is not so good as well.. but I try 2 become better..

Ehmz, let me talk about yesterday 17-10-09.. Why the title named The meaning of a star because of I saw the Brightest Star yesterday at the night. It gave me the courage to do something that I mayb would fail.. bt I am glad that I take that step.. even it wasn't goes like what I have thought. It was something I gave to her but the meaning was the most important 2 me.. bt after all, I really enjoyed my day.. Never had that feeling before..

The falling star has dropped.. but I still don't know what the answer is.. I hope someone would tell me soon enough^^..