One Month 131109' ★...

It is already one month passed.. I am so glad that I have with her.. It does not even know I only have one month with her. Actually much much longer..Although there are many problems encountered in the next 4 weeks. But I believe in our relationship that we could solve all problems.

Unfortunately I can not celebrate with her=(.. Becuz Sunday she always need to stay home..But luckily we have been planning our days in the Christmas holiday. I really look forward to. yeaaaahh!

I can't express in words how much I love you.. ur my everything..♥
ur hubbiiee

I never knew.. Happy and Sad★...

I never knew that my beebii could make a sweet and tasty muffins.. I was really suprised.. And I was the only one with a special muffin there was something written on the muffin self.. there was: I love U and 131109'N love J.. I was like omgg.. Soo swtt ♥..sorry for the rest but its my muffins xD.. And I didnt make picture of it because I was very hungry.. and my girlfriend made it .. So really need to taste it.. yummy .. 'drooling' Still need to think about it..
so ssweeeeeettt ♥..
Love youu

Bt the next sad things is...


I never knew that someone could be so important to you.. Everybody has his jalousy. The pain was very deep in my heart. I hope you could understand me why I was react like that. If I do not love you, I wouldn't have a big reaction. But I also feel guilty and sad.=( its already the 7 a 8 time.. that I have made you..=((.. haaiz.. Until I find out how I need to do.. is it already 2 late. Words cannot always cure. Bt I will try my best 2 change.. All I want to say for the last time is: Sorry..

Much Love ♥..

Swt day ★...

Its already been a long time I didn't wrote at my blog..
So .. what happend again.. Spending my time with my beebii^^.. yeahh..

When im at chinese school it feel so awkward if I stay close 2 her.. mayb its becuz I think 2 much about the other..xD.. but time has already come .. So I can do things what I like 2 do.. dunt care about the other! xP..

2day I went to Ninja Assasin with my gf.. first she said she dunt want to watch movie 2day ... Bt I said I really want 2 see it .. she didnt think about and say .. oke then we go... Aawwww.... my swt gf ^^ I knoww.. mayb she only just want 2 see Bi Rain..>< just kidding.. Bt I have told her there was a lot of blood .. do you really want 2 see it? .. still say yesh..^^ awww...

During the movie she was shocked by all the blood.. I need 2 had my hand over her eyes up.. and held her ear closed. so Qt^^ So she totally forgot Rain haha.. yeaah.. xD

Christmas almost coming, I am already looking forward to celebrate with my beebii..^^ count count the days 1,2,3,4,5 etc.. ><

Love youu♥

Happiness ★...

Is Love ♥ everything?

I can say yes..
Love can give you so much happiness..
2-1 ♥ for me.. xD 'secret code' hahah..(A)..

missyouu..

Bad bf ★...

I hate my feelings.. why does it always appear when I am at school?
I told my self... nexttime I would never react like that anymore...
I bring everyone in sad moodd..=(.. especially my gf...

I just let her think that she did something or say something wrong..
I just bring her into a trouble that shouldn't be a trouble..

I feel so guilty noww.. =(..
I don't want 2 see her sad..
I don't want 2 see her cry..

There is somethin' I want 2 say ...

I am sorry that I lovin' you so much..
thats why my c2pid feelings coming up so fast..
I never meant to hurt youu..

4give me.. ♥..

(A) ★...

The time just go really slow .. but also so fast.. what is it then?xD I wonder it was still Friday.. It was certainly one of my happiest day ever^^Love my beebii ♥..bt if there was a time wizard.. hahaha.. just go back in the past 'Mean Friday 13-11-09' xD..but oke oke ..
the days just past by..

Every day just changing..
Bt my love for you is still the same..^^ ♥

Wedding Dress by Tae Yang.. So an addicted songg...>,<
You know when you call me .. I hear the Wedding Dress ringtone.. you're never 2 late.. I am always there for you 24/7 ^^.. only for my girl ♥..

J♥N ★...

It was Friday the 13th Yesterday ..
Almost everyone believes that Friday the 13th would be an unlucky day..Bt I have express choose this day to go out with the girl that I have fall in love for a long time.. Because I really dunt believe in Fr. 13th..

But the weather was bad.. 90% rain.. wind power was 6 to 7..
But I still have make my discission to go out with her.. ^^
I really don't know what it would happend 2day .. even I dunt believe in Friday the 13th.. But I am still afraid about it .. how it would end like.. xD.. really c2pid thoughts but oke..

Lately..We went to the cinema '2012'.. Everyone know the movie.. xD .. so I dunt have to explain what kind of movie it is.. During the movie when the scene starts to become calamity..
I ask my self.. what would I do if that day comes..
we were silence for a few second...
Bt I already know my answer..

I will spend my time till my last breathe with you..♥

Lucky Friday The 13th^^

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How would the day end like.....

R.A.M. ★...

I want to share to other people don't know how to build up with a boy or a girl..
The 5th things you need to remember..

Know..
Trust..
Rely..
Commit..
Touch..

PS3 and Tekken 6 ★...

Every guy/boy Like 2 play games.. even girls also play games..
But I finally bought a ps3 ... oke my brother bought it yesterday.. we just shared the ps3 XD..
It feels a little bit strange..

I should be very happy with it.. but I can't sense that feeling..
I think, when I was young I would be very happy and play the ps3 whole day.. but now..

It just a gadget 2 me.. But oke I have it and now? .. XD really don't know..

Mayb I just think 2 much other things (A)..
But oke .. Everyone got the ps3 so I also need one! hahahahahaha... oke c2pid thoughts XD..

Narrowly Time ★...

Time is not important, How you spend the time is important.. Without time we can't think back in the past what we did..

Time was narrowly,
Every second gives me to know who you are..
Every minute gives me to know what you think..
Every quarters gives me to know what you want..
Every half hour gives me to know how you feel..
At the end of an hour, I only know I love you..

Midnight..

Like or Love? its Love ★...

I am so sorry that I have made you so sad..
Bt I really want to say..
It wasn't mean I like you .. My heart telling me .. I Love you❤..
And that was my intention..

You've explained it to me .. But it doesn't mean my mind has been changed..
Maybe words could make mistakes..

I would never say to someone: I like you..
Because I would only say: I love you..

I really don't know.. how I have changed you.. I just want to let you know..
Words can't explain anything.. feel it with ur heart❤..

I think you already know.. Its not only 'Like' but 'Love'
Only If I really love someone have a special place in my heart..

><" ★...

Awkward feeling..
It feel so heavy like a stone..
It feel so scratchy inside you..
Sometimes its look like you can't breathe..

what is it?.. Do you feel the same?..

Insomnia ★...

Types of Insomnia:

Transient insomnia?
Acute insomnia?
Chronic insomnia?
Onset insomnia?
Middle insomnia?
Terminal insomnia?

No none of them.. But why I can't fall in sleep?

I have the 'Love insomnia'..
By timing of sleep? no..
Severe depression? no..
By stress? no..
Chronic problems? no..
Pain disorders or Medical ilness? no..
Clinical depression? no..
Every second thinking about the one you love? ....

I feel only love for you ★...]

2day was Chinese sport federation organisation..
- I thought it was very boring.. I really don't want to help but I just gave me up for help with the organisation by TVB sing star..but it was really fun because this was the first time? that the chinese school have organised a lot of activities...

- Latetly of the day.. I saw my ex girlfriend.. a lot people would certainly feel really awkward when he saw her ex.. But I can tell you .. It was totally nothing, not even feeling sad that I saw her with his boyfriend! Its look like just a normal friend to me.. I can only say, I really only have feelings for the one I love.. I hope she wouldn't think that I am still thinking about her.. because its not true..

- Anyway I was a lil' bit sad.. that she called me that she couldn't come.. after a while she call me again .. that she is coming.. hahaha.. it was uhhh.. how can you say that.. Happy?=D.. but oke .. XD

ps: Anyway she wears 2day a very cute outfit ^^.. And playin' with the child..that she didn't even know who he is hahaha..

What does love mean to you? ★...

It is not enough to tell someone you love them on a regular basis if there is no passion and fire behind the statement.

Love mean to me is..
Love is something between you and me.. Bt you can also look in a different side..
What if she is not happy with you? But you still love her..
Press her to be with you all the time? Or better give her freedom 2 see her smile..

I think if you really love someone is:
If she is happy, You're happy..
You always be there if she is not happy..
Protect her in everyway..
Solve the problems if she gets in trouble..

The 3 magical words:
So tell me, what does it mean to you when you say the words, ‘I love you’ to me?
Give them time to think through their answers. Don’t pressure them.
It’s a lot like the first time you tell someone that you love them….
you still have to put yourself out there and wait for the honest openhearted response that they give you..

I hope the answer wouldn't be 'no'...

Window Shopping ★...

We made a deal last week or few weeks ago.. with 2 of my friends.. Brownie 'Nathalie and DoofenSchmirtz 'Charisse they defy me 2 only window shopping in 7 hours.. When we arrived at the Damsquare.. the first thing we go was the 'Bijenkorf'..
-Ipod store..
We stay there about 15min.. Charisse wants that Ipod Cover hahaha.. She couldn't buy.. a second later she hit my stomach.. kuch'.. Charisse: Thats what friends do.. >_< but oke.. second place..
- Ladies Stuffs OOO MMYYYY G*D! It was a nightmare 2 stay there.. Charisse was hanging all the bra's on my Coat.. I was look like a Idiot..X_X Nathalie was takin pictures without my permission.. but luckily they know it was 2 awful for me .. so we finally leave that Nightmare place..
-Expensive place! Hugo BOSS, Armani, Tommy HilFiger etc.. That was really only window shopping.. not even touched.. XD
-G-star *__* 2 Much things I like 2 buy.. But it was still a little bit expensive.. 140 euro for a trouser?.. Naaah..
-Last place in 'Bijenkorf' M.A.C ladies stuffs.. Charisse don't have the money again Hahahahahaa.... And you know what happend again.. Hit my stomach!..X_X bt now we went to DIOR department.. the parfume Dior Miss Cherie.. that smell is SO addicted!.. I was sprayed by Nath everywhere.. X_X..
Finally we are finished by the Bijenkorf.. Time 2 take a Break.. Mac Donald..

Second runn... was a little bit hurry.. Nath needs to work .. so we just walk by the Nieuwendijk.. Latetly we didn't really window shop again XD.. but we will do it once again..!!

Advantage: Didn't spend my money XD!! Disadvantage: Nicole ask Charisse to take me 2 Hunke Müller... =__=" Nooo Wayyy!


Jackiee > Charisse - Starbucks would be mine!

Missing her ★...

Some people said, If you don't see each other for a long time...
your feelings would maybe go away.. or it would be less then before..
But I think the opposite of what people thinking..

Every night when you go 2 sleep.. you can't stop thinking about her..
When you can't hear her voice.. Its hurting inside your heart..
When you couldn't see her.. its looks like you have lost her..
Each day goes beyond.. but your feelings for her is always still the same..

But I will wait for the right time.. The time to be happy being with you..

When someone you love has left you..
there is a feeling of missing a part of yourself..

03:00 PM can't sleep..

A lil' bit expensive ★...

In the morning.. I thought I could see her 2day bt I just dreamin' 2 much..=((

Bt 2day I thought I have nothing 2 do.. I just said that 2 a friend.. Bt I just totally forgot a friend of mine just give a Birthday party 2day...>_<... But better then that I didn't come..
We went 2 a Korean Restaurant called Khan Korean or something? but what ever.. there was no korean music.. no korean drama series.. even they have a Big screen Tv. but oke.. I thought mayb the food would be oke.. I ordered 'Kim Deum Ko Chi' don't know how 2 speak it out..and Chicken with Rice..

The picture from the food was oke.. So I order it.. Kim Deum Ko chi is Bacon with asparagus and egg, few prawns and pork meat.. for 15 euro..When you try 2 chew the asparagus, it looks like you are eating chewing gum.. So don't order it .. waste of your money.. and it wasn't even tasty..

Chicken with Rice..was sooo HOT!.. that you can spit fire...>_< but it was oke..becuz it was differently made than other chicken courts.. price was also 15 euro..

We didn't do anything else after the dinner..
Everybody just went home...

Ps: I was really pissed off that Doll machine!!.. Grrrr....

Since I have met you ★...

You know me, the cool guy? the innocent guy?..
I am not that kind of guy..
I am just the one who you have met..

I am the fool who is falling for you..
I can't stop my heart of thinking about you..

I am actually worried about how you think about me..
You might have some feelings towards to me..
I can only be worried like this ><"
I can't turn back..

My life was only exist from Darkness..
But since I have met you.. Its turning to a colorful life ♥..

Time will tell the Truth..

R.I.P My Friend 'Taro ★...

My little friend Taro my pet, just died 2day .. around 22.30u till 01.00u

His name is Taro, he is already 3 years old. But they said, normal hamster only live for max. 2 years. I am really glad he was still alive.. when he was 2 years old.

I am a little bit sad.. but its oke. I am not feel like crying, but it still feel so lonely because my hamster was my friend. He was very tame.. not like the other hamsters. But I knew I'd never have another hamster like Taro.

Rest In Peace my friend..

He was eatin' salad..